Honestly don't know what I'm going to write.

I'm a single mum of two. I don't want to fuck around with meaningless relationships or flings. I just want to be happy with someone. I most definitely don't want to spend months seeing someone, just for them to change their mind again. I want to be open about the fact I'm seeing (whoever I'm seeing). I want to do days out with the kids because it means they acknowledge and accept them. I want the random date nights, films on the sofa with the duvet, anything. I want someone who can say "This is my girlfriend and she's fucking amazing". I want to take stupid photos and show people that I'm with someone out of this world and vice versa. I guess I want someone who doesn't try to hide because they want to fuck about on the side. Someone who isn't ashamed, but proud to be with me...

Today was one of my bad days. I've spent the last three hours on and off crying and for the first two hours I could barely breathe, from a panic attack. I'm still randomly crying, but hey, I can breathe now. Yay me. Louis came to see the kids, we watched a few shitty animations and then he hugged me and told me I'm fucking amazing. Even though he doesn't know about my bad days, he can just tell when I need reassurance and that is literally why he is the best friend I've ever had.

That's all for today. Ciao.